IS THIS CLOSURE??? yo fuck me up 🕊️🎺✨👋🏽

bro.

holy shit.

💭

something
just happened
that historically should have
emotionally fucked me up.

💖💫

and instead
my brain just went:

“oh shit. ok.”

✨🧠

like what.

the.

fuck.

🥊😵

—

scene:

⛰️🌑🏃🏼‍♀️✨

i’m minding my business.
existing peacefully. 🕊️
living my
little crazy-ass life.

🤍✨🌙🦋

vibing about how
periwinkle is like
totally an ✨illuminating color✨

—

and then—

BAM. 🫢💥️

…this motherfucker✨

✨💀🔥🙏💨

—

the phenomenon ✨🌈
that only happens with
one specific human.

🕊️🌪️✨👑

the one where
the air suddenly evaporates
and my brain goes:

⚡⚡⚡

oh hell no. 💥
there is
no fucking way—

and
i freeze
for like half a second.

⚡️🫨🕊️📉🌑

like??

YO

💥 what the actual FUCK
💥 is going ON RN???

—

side note:

(why tf
am i wearing
this random hoodie
via 2020
from his dad tho???
✨absolutely dies 🪦💀 )

—

homie, ⚡

i was trippin. 🫨

like.
i tip that squad
💥 heavy
💥 regularly
but…TODAY??

🏎️💨🫣🙏🏼✨

I LITERALLY
MUST HAVE
💥 BLACKED TF OUT.

🫨📢🆘

i remember—
😱 seeing camo
😱 thinking “lol cool pants”
😱 looking up—
WAIT A FUCKING SECOND 🧨💥

😭🚩

nooooo.

(can’t think) 💥

🫣 i exit.
🫣 i sit in the car.
🫣 stare at the sweatshirt.

✨🧠✨

look at my dog. 🐕

look back. 💥

and
there
he
is.

yo

i am not hallucinating.

🔌☁️📉🫨

right there. 💥

with—

✨ a girl. ✨

—

omg.

now listen.

in the past
this scene would have
triggered approximately
a goddamn billion ⚡️
emotional sub-plotlines.

✨😭✨

🌀 crying.
🌀 confusion.
🌀 genuine sadness.
🌀 existential dread???

🔥🙃🔥

but…

today?

⚡️ y’all. ⚡️

…

my brain just
ran the scan
and went:

💥

oh. ok.

🧘🏼‍♀️🌈🏮🧨

—

like genuinely.

😐 she looked nice.
😐 pretty actually.

and ✨the only✨ thought
my mind yielded was:

💥

damn.
i hope he’s fucking happy.

😨⚡️🥹

—

bro.

✨and that was it.✨

🔥🧯

like literally.

that was
the whole-ass
🌈 emotional event.

🫶🥹

—

wait,
but like???

💥 no spiral?
💥 no meltdown?
💥 no decade-long fucking perplexity???

👼🏼📱🚫✨

shit.

because listen
life has made me realize
the most loving shit you can do
is let people go.

🥀

—

so it’s
just me
sitting there
for three seconds going

✨yo.
that’s fucking wild. ✨

🧠💭

and then—

i drove home.

🙏🏼

—

reported
the semi-annual
😨⚡️
“lol. girl.
that was weird af—
babe!!
that universe glitch-shit
—just happened again”⚡️🤡
text to my bestie.

—

like on—
😐 that hike w your mom.
😐 or driving down the street.
😐 or darting the fuck off
💥 with some
💥 unexpected chick,
that
i truly hope
makes you so fucking happy.

🫨🌪️

(i mean that shit, ✨amen✨.)

—

because then??

yo i just—
continued with my day.

…

because apparently
the ✨final stage of healing ✨
is when
the thing that used
to fucking break you
just becomes:

background static.

✨💫

—

🔥 no emotions.
🔥 no attachment.
🔥 no fucking void.

what??

just a weird-ass
little reminder
that you’ve moved to
an entirely different timeline.

💞

and
whatever
that…was??
it proved we just
flared up
for one fucking second
like a dying-ass star
that was
always destined
to burn the fuck out.

✨💥☄️

—

honestly,
babe?

10/10 experience.

🧘🏼‍♀️⚡️🫨

would recommend
emotional detachment.

✨💫

xoxo

p.s. she really was pretty.