why does it feel like my husband is trying to kill me? 🙏✨🕊️

now
i do not
just remember
my marriage. 💫

no.

i have to re-learn it.

i have to go back through
the worst fucking days of my life
and watch them again ✨with context.✨

oh. ✨that’s why he was acting like that.
oh. ✨that’s why the money was gone.
oh. ✨that’s why he was crashing.
oh. ✨that’s why he was hiding his phone.
oh. ✨that’s why i felt like i was in extreme danger.
oh. ✨that’s why i felt like i was being hunted in my own home.

—

bro.

do you understand
how fucking violent that is?

💥💥💥

to survive
the nightmare first
and only later receive
the hidden fucking framework?

💥💥💥

to be told—

🤡💥
you are goddamn crazy
and then
discover later,
you were actually
just tremendously
goddamn
under-informed?

🧠💥

—

yo.

to be pregnant
and fucking terrified
and later learn
there were
whole-ass dialogues
✨inside your own marriage✨
you were never allowed to fucking join?

jesus christ.

🙏✨🕊️

i believed
i was living with
a fucking sober man.

🔥🥊

nah.

how tf are we alive.

🪦💫