apparently my ptsd is a personality defect, not a fucking nervous system response 💀⚰️🔥🙃🤡

yo ok
let’s be fucking real here

when people point
at my emotional trauma blog
like it’s exhibit a
in the tragic
“she’s unreliable” narrative

what they’re really saying is:

i documented
my nervous system responding
to prolonged,
ongoing harm.
✨ not invented the harm.
✨ not made up the stress.
✨ not looking for sympathy.

nah. 🤡

just showing
what a brain does
when the threat
never fucking leaves.

and
that fact?
it’s not fucking opinion —
it’s what trauma science actually says.

🧠📚✨

“she blogs → she’s unstable → so the abuse might be fake.”

☝️🙄🤡

that isn’t science.
that’s dumb-ass
dramatic defense
clown logic.

real trauma science
says this basic math:

ongoing harassment + retaliation + victim-blaming + institutional betrayal
= exacerbated ptsd symptoms. 💥️💥️💥️💥️

—

aka continuous traumatic stress —
grandiloquent way of saying
if the threat never fully leaves,
your nervous system never cools the fuck down.

so yes — when:

🔥 i get stalked
🔥 i get harassed
🔥 my character is assassinated like it’s a hobby
🔥 my credibility gets surgically attacked
🔥 my trauma gets litigated like it’s a fucking spectator sport
🔥 my abuser gets framed as the misunderstood protagonist

my nervous system
is going to act like
it thinks it’s in goddamn danger.

newsflash genius:
that is not instability.
that is fucking biology.

💀🙏🔥

—

ok so.

shallow take vs deep truth

shallow take:

“her emotional writing proves she’s unreliable.”

deep truth:

my emotional writing proves my nervous system is still getting punched.

like:

✨🧠✨

🏆 strangulation and repeated assaults while pregnant
🏆 financial ruin stacked on top of trauma debt
🏆 timelines rewritten like goddamn true crime
🏆 cross-examining me about how i almost died in my third trimester

and y’all want
to point to my reaction
as the cause?

🤡🤡🤡
no.

that’s like poking
a goddamn bruise repeatedly
and then acting shocked
when it hurts.

that’s not proof
the bruise is fake.
that’s proof
you keep touching the bruise.

—

hello.

😐 post-separation abuse —
leaving didn’t stop the harm,
it just changed the fucking rules.

😐 paper abuse / procedural stalking —
the legal system becomes the stalker.
not metaphorically — procedurally.

😐 darvo —
deny it happened,
attack the victim,
reverse the victim/offender roles
all while blaming the victim for breathing.

😐 institutional betrayal —
when the establishments
that should protect you
contorts your survival response
into a goddamn defect.
straight up betrayal,
but with a binder full
(seemingly)
of a fraudulently obtained
HIPAA violation of documents.

**

(you holding my files,
is a part of the
what looks like…
fucking
fraud)

🤫🤰

and the research?
it says all that
increases ptsd symptoms.
🙏✨🔥
not feelings.
not vibes.
actual brain/neuro shit
from continuous threat exposure.

fucking brilliant.

🧠

let’s be so goddamn
fucking clear

my blog is
not the origin story.
it’s the reaction
to the ongoing assault.

🔥🔥🔥🔥

the diary
didn’t create the trauma.
nah.
the conduct did.
my nervous system
did what a nervous system does
when it’s
🕯️ fucked up,
🕯️ punched,
🕯️ litigated,
and then
🕯️ blamed for fucking existing.

💀🔥🙏

and yes —
i wrote about it
because
silence benefits abusers.
💍🤫🔥
and that’s the
brutal fucking truth.

😐

—

hey. 👋😐😧
maybe
y’all should
sit with that discomfort
🤫🤰
instead of trying to
weaponize
my goddamn
survival response.

💔

xoxo—

signed,
sarcastic,
scientifically defensible,
legally watchable:

💀⚰️🔥🙃🤡💅🙏✨🔥