your honor, i’m too sensitive for this shit 😭✨

girl.
deadass.
maybe i'm not built for this.

like…
juris doctor of vibes,
not fucking lies—
bro.

like…

maybe…
i’m gonna be a piece of shit lawyer.
or
maybe i’m not gonna graduate at all.
who
really
fucking
knows.

i know—
i ain’t a fucking liar

but…

✨ manifesting something ✨

(probably anything above a fucking b- ??)

no.
but no fr—
i've been
thinking about
this way
too much lately.
like.
tell me.
this whole game.
this whole system.
this whole shitty-ass industry
of fucking bullshitting?
while people fucking drown??

wtf?

really though—
like why even do it???

bro.

and i keep
looking the fuck around
like—
are there really ten-ish+
legal professionals
cc’d on this fucking email thread??
watching a single mom
get fucking
shredded by
procedural fuckshit
in real time
and they're just like,

“lol. anyway. reply all with a deadline :)”

like bitch.
you saw it.
you read it.
and you still filed that motion?
you really told your client

“yeah this is totally fine. we’re winning here”?

girl.

this is winning???

shit.
you’re not winning.
bro.
you’re just fucking paid.

what even is this shit???

not a legal battle.
a fucking battle of exhaustion.

and that’s
the part
that kinda kills me.
that someone can hand you a check
and suddenly
it's not your job to be ethical??
to aim towards fucking truth??
just out here filing…
fucking whatever??
like
you don’t have to sleep with it.
or answer to it.
or wonder
if you’re the stupid ass reason
some single mom
silently screams
in her kitchen
because she has to re-file
while holding
her fucking kid in one arm
and reading a dumbass motion
that says nothing
and really
just tries
to fucking erase reality.

😐👏

idk.
maybe i’m not built for it.
maybe i’ll suck at this.
maybe i already do.

because
when i’m in class
and they say
“use their background against them”
my brain translates it to
“who can lie based on bias.”

nah.
nope.

won’t do it.

and look,
i don’t think i can do that.
i don’t think i want to.
even when i “hate” people,
even when i'm angry,
i don’t want to burn anyone
just because
it fucking pays well.

fucking weak ass shit.

i wanted to
do this to protect people.
to legally fight douchebags.
to make the bastards fucking sweat.
but this system?
this industry?

it doesn’t give
a single fuck about justice.
it wants performers.
fucking liars.
goofy-ass sharks
from their privileged families.
this shit rewards
whoever can
weaponize
fucking apathy
with a straight fucking face.

and maybe that’s not me.

but baby,
i never give up.

and i can go…
for fucking ever.

👍🙂✨