15 years for this?? dope. 💔🪦👶🏼

nah
this one is just
for my own broken
dumb-ass heart.

💔

it’s savage,
isn’t it?
how even when
we weren’t together,
when you came to me
with your big family speeches,
when shit was
complicated as hell,
when you called me
the fucking second
you got out of
the fucking joint—
for that “misunderstanding”
said you needed me,
said you thought about only me
the whole fucking time—
and of course?
i showed the fuck up.
like,
within an hour
of getting off work,
heart pounding,
because i was that
fucking nervous for you.

🤡🖕🏻

it’s savage, too,
how when you called
the fucking blue squad
all because i said the fucking
🗣 ugly-ass reality out loud,
when you were lying—
(one fucking time)
and i still told them
the whole fucking truth,
still begged them
not to do anything to you,
because i knew
you
🗣 weren’t actually
🗣 fucking dangerous.
*not like them.

🖕🏻fucking facts.

i protected you,
even when
you’d left me
to miscarry your
own fucking child
alone. 🤡🤡🤡

🗣🗣
i protected you,
even when
you fucking betrayed me.

💫🤡🎪

and i never
ever
really believed
even after,
all this shit—
you were this
fucking far gone.
but turns out
you are. ✨

because now
i’m not even asking
for fucking romance. ✨
i made that so fucking clear.
all i needed was loyalty. ✨
camaraderie. ✨
a decade and a half of it—
the shit
you swore
was fucking unshakable. ✨
i didn’t care if
you had a fucking girlfriend.
i didn’t care if life got tangled.
because (!!!)
i am not fucking like that—
i respect boundaries.
i respect relationships—
i just needed
a motherfucking homie
to come through ✨
on something
i know you could do
in your fucking sleep.
and you chose silence—
like you lost my fucking email,
like you haven’t called me
10 thousand times,
from random fucking numbers.
like you aren’t still
vigorously ✨
keeping fucking eyes on me—
while i ask for help.

💭
yo—
it’s truly
some bullshit—
like you don’t know.

you genuinely
goddamn
break
my fucking heart.

💔ִֶָ

because?

(take character notes) ✍🏻

i would
fucking never
leave you out here—
(or fucking anyone)
all alone.

ok.

true 15-year loyalty 🔥🔥🔥

because hey?
it’s more manageable
to dub me
fucking crazy ✨
than genuinely take
any fucking accountability
for your own fucking actions.

and how they
continuously impact
the women around you.

and yes—
her too.

because
we all know ✨
you most definitely—
spun some shit.

just like a true “man”—
i fucking guess.

🔥🔥🔥

👏🏿👏🏽👏🏻👏🏾👏🏼

word.

✨

lol.
do you know
how
fucked up it is,
to realize
the person
you loved ✨ most ✨
isn’t even capable
of baseline protection—
baseline human fucking decency?
not as my guy✨—
not even as my fucking friend.
not even as the kid
i knew
when he was fucking fifteen,✨
or back when
we swore
we’d never
fuck each other over.

🥀😭

guess what?
i kept my fucking promise.

and i’m not
a goddamn liar
because
i actually give a shit—
about all of it.
even about
my goddamn shitty-ass husband
who i gave
every
goddamn
fucking opportunity
to be
halfway
fucking
decent.

damn.

—but you?

you gave zero shits.
zero.
i threw a whole ass baby shower
for a woman who wasn’t me,
but you won’t
even give a single fuck (!)
if i get fucked
with my infant
in my fucking arms.

🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣
while i’m dodging
a fucking
dangerous-ass dude—
i slammed into (!)
🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣
immediately after
you fucking abandoned me,
after you lied,
after you backstabbed,
after you fucking
ran and hid.

and i ran straight-fucking-headfirst
into this
fucking dude.
👊🏻💥👊🏻💥👊🏻💥👊🏻💥

(a whole-ass fucking predator)

👏🏿👏🏽👏🏻👏🏾👏🏼

aka:
the most
fucked (!)
option
for baby-daddy
or husband—
on planet fucking earth.
🏆

👏🏿👏🏽👏🏻👏🏾👏🏼

yes, i was vulnerable.
yes, i was unprotected.
yes, i am fucking naive to the depths
of righteous fucking human rot.

but god damn.
💔ִֶָ🥀😭

you?
you are not who i thought you were.
you are not even a fucking fraction.

😺😺😺

so congratulations 🎉🎉
you win again.
i actually “hate” you now.
😭😩🥳 right fucking back.

yo—
and truly 😭
i’m not even fucking like that.
hating people is not my shit.
😞😭😩😭💔ִֶָ💔ִֶָ💔ִֶָ
but i guess
this shit?
is
the only fucking
emotion i got left.
and babe—it’s
not in the wish-you-bad-shit sense.
not in the hope-you-suffer sense.
just in the
you’re dead to me
sense.

🥀😭

thanks for fucking nothing.

💔ִֶָ🪦👶🏼